by Maggie Marr
I am a writer.
It took years before I could actually say those four words without a coy smile or an apology hidden in the tone of my voice. For me, admitting that I am a writer was akin to waking up and deciding to stroll down my street without clothes. Those four little words created more than a hint of embarrassment within me because of the audaciousness of proclaiming myself to be someone who thought my words worthy of publication--to actually believe I had something of value to say/write/publish/expect people to read.
But I am a writer.
For me, words flow. Story ideas blossom like wildflowers after a spring rain. Characters bounce around my brain whispering their secrets. There are so many different people living in my grey matter I sometimes don't have room for my own thoughts. I have little choice but to write down the stories that flood my mind, should I refuse to tell these tales, I fear I might actually lose sight of myself.
But here is the thing--just because I write down these words, characters, scenes, and settings doesn't mean I write them well. Just because I have a fully formed character in my brain chatting away telling me about their life, love, childhood--doesn't mean I create a multi-dimensional fully formed human being on the page. At least not in the first draft. While the initial story often comes fast for me--the refining, the crafting--well that took years for me to understand.
This is a diamond straight out of the mine.

That dark brown piece of rock looks like my first draft. Brown. Dirty. Mucky. Mishapen. Really--in a sense kind of ugly. A lot like any other rock you might pick up off the ground. For a number of years (more than I care to admit) I believed that the words--because they flowed so fast and so well were the right words. They were perfect as they came.
Those words were a first draft.
As most writers will tell you--the first draft--well she ain't that pretty. Just like that rock--there is a whole lot of potential within that draft but well you've got to cut, craft, and polish before your manuscript shines.
I read once that Michael Crichton claimed to touch every page of his manuscript a minimum of 54 times. 54. That is 54 edits. 54 cuts, 54 polishes, tweeks, rewrites, rereads, pastes--54 times. Whether you enjoy Crichton's work or not--he's a hell'uv a writer. It took me 7 manuscripts (2 published) before I truly understood the meaning of editing.
Editing is not rereading and fixing minor inconsistencies and typos. Editing is not simply making certain your character is clever and cute. Editing is not having your critique group take a pass and then you are finished. At least editing isn't any of those things for me. 7 manuscripts (actually it may be more...) and 16 years later I finally understand what editing is.
Editing is a pain in the a**. Editing is picking apart piece by piece every scene, every sentence, every word to try and squeeze the most emotion out of every little bit. Editing is doing justice to the story you've been given by sitting and sweating over visceral emotion and body language. Editing is ruthlessly cutting the scene, line, sentence that you adore but know deep in your heart does not deserve a place in your book. Editing is craft.
And editing--when done right--can make your writing (fingers crossed) look like this.

Leave a comment about something you spend the time to polish--whether it be writing--painting--practicing law--baking--raising kids--anything you know that you've made better because of your time and dedication. Thanks to random.org one commentor will win a copy of Can't Buy Me Love.

Maggie Marr is the an attorney and former motion picture literary agent. Her latest book and first contemporary romance Can't Buy Me Love published in March. Her next contemporary romance, Courting Trouble will publish July 2012. She is also the author of Hollywood Girls Club and Secrets of The Hollywood Girls Club. She lives in Los Angeles, is married and has children. You can follow her on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and any other soon to be discovered social networking tools that serve as excellent procrastination devices. Please read her books--she has so many stories to tell!
I'm so glad I found this post. I am in the thick of editing HELL, wondering if I will ever get it right, and Maggie Marr, "Your words to God's ear." Everything you said resounded with me, and made me feel like less of a failure for not being DONE with a manuscript that's taking the opposite of light years. I can't wait to read both your and Sandra's books...they're in my TBR pile, and now I think they might just jump to the top. excellent timing!
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DeleteI am currently in the sh*t too w/my current manuscript--for me deep editing is never easy. But I know it makes all the difference. Good luck and Godspeed.
xoMaggie
Maggie,
ReplyDeleteGreat post! And so true. I've just finished a first draft of my 12th book and I'm daunted at the amount of work ahead of me. So much to fix/edit!! My relief at finishing the first draft disappeared after I realized just HOW much work this book needs. Ugh! Congrats on CBML!
I know! What is that--you finally reach 'the end' only to discover it is not even the middle. I am always shocked at both the muck I find in my first draft when I go back and reread as well as the really pretty bits.
DeleteWell said, Maggie! I don't know a single author who gets it right the first time around, or even the second. I think the secret is knowing when to say it's done. Hopefully, that's before you edit the life out of your story. Not that you have that problem!! Love your writing!
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DeleteYou made my day--truly no sweeter words to an author's ear than 'I love your writing' okay maybe 'your advance will be seven-figures.'
xoMM
This is a wonderful post, Maggie. I actually like rewriting. Weird huh? But to me it's like the same pleasure I get from ironing. I take something wrinkled and make it smooth and pretty. : )
ReplyDeleteI love the sound of your book. Will put it on my list.
Robena
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You know my biggest problem is getting started on the edit--once I actually sit down and start the time flies but I have such a challenge plopping my tush down to start w/the editing!
xoMM
Love this post! I was shaking my head up and down as I read it.
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Thank you, Brenda! I have to give a shout out--truly I didn't know how to edit until I took one of Margie Lawson's deep editing classes. I only wish I'd taken it years and years ago--but I guess as they say when the student is finally ready...
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Definitely my singing. I practice a lot. One of the important things about singing is breathing and I was always a self taught singer so I have to relearn and use proper techniques in which to protect my voice as well as gaining benefits such as control and power. Not always a easy as it looks. Opera is an excellent exmple of technique at it's best. Thanks for the giveaway!
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Oh Margaret--I am so envious. When I sing I sound like a dying goat in a tin bucket. I've always wanted to sing--I think this is the most amazing talent. Thank you for sharing your experience. Yes getting ride of bad habits (while it takes time and SO MUCH energy) and leapfrog a talent to the next level.
DeleteWell, you know you hit the nail on the head with the editing part. My first book was 100,000 words and I edited it back to about 55,000. The hard work was taking my "baby" with all my emotions "barfed" all over the pages, and make it into something readable and likable by someone other than ME. It's definitely better now. And I'm still working on it. Talk about a "labor of love". Whoever coined that phrase had me in their back pocket.
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Ack. Been there. But I've found all those extra words that I end up cutting truly teach me something--something--about my characters, my story, my setting, my plot--even if a giant chunk of them end up deleted or in my
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Hi Maggie!
ReplyDeleteFor someone who spent all of my time in English class checking out my split ends, I must say the odds of me being published were huge!
I've put in the time, due to my deep love for the art of storytelling, read, studied, applied, and grown from all gathered knowledge on writing those stories each and every day since I got serious about the written word. And now I keep my hair short so split ends be damned!
Lynne
DeleteI know you work hard at your prose because you make it look so easy. That is the sign of a really good edit by a really good writer. Writing that looks effortless on the page takes a ton of work. Thank you for commenting!!
Yep, it is all in the editing. Great post and now back to my revisions.
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DeleteI love my job and polishing and putting in long hours and dedication has definitely made me better at it ! Thank you for a really lovely post and for the awesome giveaway.
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Desere!! So happy your post showed up! Thank you for stopping by and thank you for the comment!
DeleteThis is going to sound really pompous, and I don't mean it to, but the thing I spend the most time polishing is my gratitude and happiness. After spending so many years on the wrong track, and now comparing the bliss of the current right one, I never ever want to forget. So I try to flip complaints and shame into joy and gratitude. and it works a lot of the time :)
ReplyDeleteAnd in that spirit I am grateful for you and our community of women who write, tell stories and follow dreams. It is truly amazing, it truly matters! Thanks Maggie! MWAH!!!!
Christine
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful comment! Thank you for leaving this!
Thanks to random.org Sheila Curran is the winner of Can't Buy Me Love!
ReplyDeleteChiming in late, but kudos to you both for a great post...and an honest one!
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